things that i am grateful for

well this is going to be daily thing to keep me sane and grounded
not to mention remove my brooding pride/self worth
no man is indispensable

*i am literate. i can read and write.
*i have adequate food, shelter and clothing. it may not be what i WANT but it is enough to address my needs
*i am technically inclined in the sense that i have a laptop, ipad, cellphone, dslr, digital camera.
*i have a job that pays for my needs. the salary not only covers the needs but i have some to spare for savings
*i have a health plan and money in the bank to cover for medical expenses if ever i get sick.

will post some more later or by tomorrow. i have a schedule to keep.
i should not dwell to much in my leisure time for i will be the one most suffering from doing this too much.

too much of something is bad enough whatever context this is.
but what does not kill you will only make you stronger.

i've gotten hurt a lot of times, physically and emotionally but i'm still alive
and for that i am stronger today although my body maybe aged

but then again i am not that old :P

and again

i am blogging. We'll see what i have to say tomorrow.
i have a lot of plans and i should stick to them.
this is going to be a very busy 3 day work week.
first, monday is a Philippine holiday and on friday well company sports day
i am hooked on watching tv. thank God for cable! :)
Exercise is first thing on my list tomorrow.
Got to fix my priorities and get my life back on track.
i am sure that my life is totally out of it.

of stalkers et. al.

and i know many people who are so assuming
they think that every post is about them
well this post is about them
i might as well protect this blog from their view
if i may and if that is possible
i hope and pray with all my might
that they don't get to read this ever
not everything is about them
will you just leave me alone?
i don't like being followed upon like a baby
i can survive on my own and live on my own for that matter
i've come a long way and whatever decision i take,
it's not all about YOU, you know.
so just pleaseeeee leave me alone and stop stalking my posts
is there no privacy anymore to being an employee?
is it my fault now that i am not satisfied?
well that should show as an indication of their leadership performance
they have got a problem. i am just an effect of their weakness
or rather their lack of doing their duty.
i know i can be quite harsh
but sometimes you just have to be frank and harsh
there is no such thing as putting icing on everything you say
to spare anyone's feelings.
people won't accept it as a right thing to do though, just like i did at first
but you only get what you are giving me.
karma is a boomerang
and if i am doing such faults then i will suffer them too this i expect
but that does not mean that you just can wash off your hands off any of this
since it has YOU written all over it.
you knew this was coming and yet you did not do anything to prevent it
just like the possibility of eliminating a car from crashing off a steep hill
you get the brakes checked regularly but noooooo
you did not do any of those standard checks and this reflects in the whole team
the results may be there but there is no such thing as team in teamwork.
i can only see work with no team and so i end this with a prayer
that this to will past for everything in this world is temporary
there is a higher purpose than dwelling on faults and blaming others.

fed up!

i said it once and i'll say it again because you people don't seem to quite get it
this idea is not feasible! why don't you reassign me other markets?
i already told you this before and still you don't want to accept the
very obvious reason for all of this is to replace me and get me out of this place
already if it is not working anymore!

work load

every one is so concerned with their individual work load
and as if i am not complaining about my own work load here?
don't i have any right to complain?
fuck. all of this is crap. i'm writing it all here since everyone else
cannot read this.

very important people

fuck you all with all your large egos
when will this live freak show end?
getting crap from everyone and am i even deserving of this?
NO not one bit. assign another person in my place
do me the honors or i'll exit myself.
AGAIN i did not ask for this.

4 am

yup the time is correct..and i'm still wide awake
why am i still up you ask?
well hmm let me tell you why hehe
for one, i am an addict to playing video games
and you all know that Facebook games don't have a final stage
they just go on and on until you get bored or you move to another game
i do not get bored of games sadly :(
i am so hooked on these games and they keep me up at night
i know i should control myself but they are so irresistible haha
i never thought i'd call games irresistible
i must be going crazy since i always lack sleep
well off to bed now. i'm going to blog about everything else here
since no one pays attention to this anyway compared to the multiply posts
that i have been doing. it shed too much controversy
and too much information.. i want to keep this as confidential as possible
er..what an irony that is.
wanting to keep my posts confidential but sharing it with the rest of the world
well the rest of the world doesn't know me and i'm happy about that :)
all i know is that i know who i love and who loves me most :*
and that makes all the difference
well i'd rather not mix any mushiness into this post..maybe tomorrow
i will talk about love and everything that i know of it haha
LOVE - it's everyones favorite intriguing topic
the root of all other problems and sins in the world since most..
don't or can't handle it at all..
i will not start discussing about love hehe i'll leave it to tomorrow
and that's a promise.
yey am writing a journal again :)
i miss writing and playing with words :)