work load

every one is so concerned with their individual work load
and as if i am not complaining about my own work load here?
don't i have any right to complain?
fuck. all of this is crap. i'm writing it all here since everyone else
cannot read this.

very important people

fuck you all with all your large egos
when will this live freak show end?
getting crap from everyone and am i even deserving of this?
NO not one bit. assign another person in my place
do me the honors or i'll exit myself.
AGAIN i did not ask for this.

4 am

yup the time is correct..and i'm still wide awake
why am i still up you ask?
well hmm let me tell you why hehe
for one, i am an addict to playing video games
and you all know that Facebook games don't have a final stage
they just go on and on until you get bored or you move to another game
i do not get bored of games sadly :(
i am so hooked on these games and they keep me up at night
i know i should control myself but they are so irresistible haha
i never thought i'd call games irresistible
i must be going crazy since i always lack sleep
well off to bed now. i'm going to blog about everything else here
since no one pays attention to this anyway compared to the multiply posts
that i have been doing. it shed too much controversy
and too much information.. i want to keep this as confidential as possible
er..what an irony that is.
wanting to keep my posts confidential but sharing it with the rest of the world
well the rest of the world doesn't know me and i'm happy about that :)
all i know is that i know who i love and who loves me most :*
and that makes all the difference
well i'd rather not mix any mushiness into this post..maybe tomorrow
i will talk about love and everything that i know of it haha
LOVE - it's everyones favorite intriguing topic
the root of all other problems and sins in the world since most..
don't or can't handle it at all..
i will not start discussing about love hehe i'll leave it to tomorrow
and that's a promise.
yey am writing a journal again :)
i miss writing and playing with words :)

starvation

should i start starving myself right now to get that summer bod?
the world is swirling. it's not a good idea to think of food right now
why do i still get hungry even if i'm just sitting for the whole day?
this gets so frustrating. hopefully i'll survive.
i get cranky when i'm hungry
and hungry and frustration is not a good mix to deal with.
hope i won't ruin anything by going through this phase.
somebody please kill me now. i hate this.

too much drama

and how dare you tell me to my face that i am your stalker
baga kau kag nawng
you really think of yourself so highly
what's the deal with you? i am trying everything that i can do
to avoid you
but there you are acting as if you're not trying to get my attention
i am doing practically everything to avoid you
what do you want from me?
will you just please finally leave me alone
i hate it that you still make me feel this way
fuck off will you and leave me alone

of life and all of that crap

and so they thought i would not notice anything
tough luck i don't dare miss a detail and
i for one, don't let things like this go easily
watch your backs, you might get run over one day
you've got it going already
good luck and good riddance to all of this
a new chapter has begun oh so exciting
the victor will always rise from the ashes and
you puny excuse for a person or a bunch people,
will be annihilated and ruined for the greater good of it all
i will be ok once again once the anger turns to indifference
e.g. i don't and wont care anymore to the point that i can say
i can't care less woohoo ;p

happiness and selfishness

and of course i don't have to tell the world of my worries
and that is a general rule
and so because of this,
i will make it clear and simple
i will not and never ever meddle in other people's business
why should i trouble my self with other people's concerns
i do not care whether what will happen to
whomever especially for those people who are not worthy to be cared of
to each his own
and so i begin today a new journey in my life
less clutter and less complexity
thanks for that someone who made it positively clear
that i for one should not be bothered by other people's petty concerns
for they too share the same sentiments as me
they don't give a damn shit of what happens to me
so i should offer them the same
this may be a reaction but know it makes complete sense
not to be bothered by them
i should only think of myself
yes, this shows selfishness but i too deserve to be selfish sometimes
i always sacrifice for other people, well i should limit this now to my family only
and for those not part of my family, well to hell with you and your problems
bon voyage and may God help you the way you helped me also
an eye for an eye