Sunday, September 7, 2008

i am what i am

the best advice that i got was from my great grandmother
and she said "trust no one but yourself"
she added that i am very much like her..
i too have a strong personality and a hard worker
when i have a goal i plan everything that i do to reach it
no matter what it takes, no matter what i give up
if my heart is set on something, i abandon all ships and sail to
whatever or wherever my heart is
people will always misinterpret my intentions, my goals,
my hopes and my dreams
but i don't really need them to understand what i hope, i love and i plan to do
if i keep on fighting and struggling for others to know me then i know that path is futile.
i don't need to prove myself to anyone that is for sure
if i end up being alone, i really don't care
i will not betray or abandon myself just because i will not be accepted
i would rather face anything that comes in between what i want than
have a lot of regrets in my death bed
in life you can only do what you can
i can't waste my time pretending to care for others i don't really care for
i won't interfere with other people's lives anymore
call me tactless all you want but i know i can be the only honest person
when no one else will tell you the truth that sears your insides and tears your heart a part
there will come a time when you want someone to tell you the cold hard truth
and by that time i won't be there to answer you or even talk to you
i really don't care and for that matter, what friendship did you ever mean?
your not the only friend that i've got.
i have a lot of close friends, i would rather eliminate the weaker bonds of friendship that i have
in the end, i know that those weaker bonds were shredded and severed because in this world, "survival of the fittest" really is the key
i may not look like a strong person given my frail built and my femininity but far from that, which you do not know of, i have a heart that is burning with desire and passion to reach my every goal that is if God wills me to reach it
i will not take my life for granted just because people criticize me or even belittle me
it takes a lot to bring my spirits down
i may withdraw from the battle ground at times but when i do come back..it's as if i was never missing from the battle ground at all ;p
sa masuya lang. jealousy is a curse to all those who are insecure of me even though i don't try to be your competition i always end up as someone else's competition.
oh great, as if i wanted to be in your role anyway
i am just working my way in this world and finding my place
where i should end up and spend the rest of my days in :P

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