this one goes out to the one i love..

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did you ever get that feeling when you know that no one is going to fill that space in you heart?
that you feel deep down inside who you are going to spend your days with..until your inevitable death?
that feeling is scary and wonderful at the same time
you feel happy because you know there is that someone who will be a constant witness in your journey called life, someone you know who will always be there, come rain or shine..
but then again, that feeling is scary once reality seeps in, the tabloids are filled with the kind of stories you don't ever want to hear which makes you fear commitment
or even flee from it.
i have learned that the things that scare you the most give you the greatest lessons in life and you should not escape from the things that scare but rather face them, head on, so as to really measure yourself and get to the bottom of things on why you are really scared of it..
i am talking vaguely again
i guess i just want to keep things as discreet as possible
i make plans and as much as i want all my plans to materialize, i know that there are certain things that i cannot foresee or those things that i have no control over.
the future is uncertain that CERTAINLY is true but i know for a fact that the present is also what it should be and where you are right now is exactly the place you should be..i don't know why i am in Makati, far away from my room where i feel as if no one can harm me, away from the love of my life(ayeee)
it is not easy standing on your on two feet again when you get used to the fact that someone is taking care of you..
here in Makati, i am the one taking care of myself, me and no one else
i miss having someone taking care of me..
i miss you..
and no matter how hard i try to accept that we are this far away,
i know that i still wont accept the idea of us being this far away for such a long time
i am going to find a way, to come back to Cebu and be as close to you as possible
the feeling of being so far away from the one that you love is so painful
i try so hard to push the feeling of missing you away or even hiding it from other people but at night, when every one is asleep and it's silent, i start thinking of you and the moments that we spent together, i want more moments like that,
we have been together for such a long time already and for me, i will never get tired or bored with you, although you make me mad at times, it's not enough to make me hate you or even break up with you.
i am not giving up on us.
i will never give up on us and that's a promise