too much drama

and how dare you tell me to my face that i am your stalker
baga kau kag nawng
you really think of yourself so highly
what's the deal with you? i am trying everything that i can do
to avoid you
but there you are acting as if you're not trying to get my attention
i am doing practically everything to avoid you
what do you want from me?
will you just please finally leave me alone
i hate it that you still make me feel this way
fuck off will you and leave me alone

of life and all of that crap

and so they thought i would not notice anything
tough luck i don't dare miss a detail and
i for one, don't let things like this go easily
watch your backs, you might get run over one day
you've got it going already
good luck and good riddance to all of this
a new chapter has begun oh so exciting
the victor will always rise from the ashes and
you puny excuse for a person or a bunch people,
will be annihilated and ruined for the greater good of it all
i will be ok once again once the anger turns to indifference
e.g. i don't and wont care anymore to the point that i can say
i can't care less woohoo ;p

happiness and selfishness

and of course i don't have to tell the world of my worries
and that is a general rule
and so because of this,
i will make it clear and simple
i will not and never ever meddle in other people's business
why should i trouble my self with other people's concerns
i do not care whether what will happen to
whomever especially for those people who are not worthy to be cared of
to each his own
and so i begin today a new journey in my life
less clutter and less complexity
thanks for that someone who made it positively clear
that i for one should not be bothered by other people's petty concerns
for they too share the same sentiments as me
they don't give a damn shit of what happens to me
so i should offer them the same
this may be a reaction but know it makes complete sense
not to be bothered by them
i should only think of myself
yes, this shows selfishness but i too deserve to be selfish sometimes
i always sacrifice for other people, well i should limit this now to my family only
and for those not part of my family, well to hell with you and your problems
bon voyage and may God help you the way you helped me also
an eye for an eye

unintended eavesdropping on conversations

another thing that i hate doing
or i am forced to do
unintentionally eavesdropping on other people's conversations
is that my fault?
or is it the other persons fault?
i really don't like the position where i am in right now
i cannot do anything about it i guess
i have no where else to go that's for sure
one thing i'm not in Cebu anymore
this place is so foreign to me
i need to set my comfort zone here
where ever that may be
i have yet to find it
where ever it is right now
that i really can't answer any one straight
maybe i'll just play bigfish games haha hope this cures my boredom
btw, no work today since the building where my office is at,
received a bomb threat
every one was in a panic, that they said
but then again, hello
i was not able to get there since i did not get to ride a jeepney
i waited for like 30 minutes, maybe that was a sign that i should not have reached the building at all
someone up there is really looking out for me :)
thanks God! for the FYI in advance..
it saved me a lot of trouble though
i just spent the whole afternoon surfing the net and waiting for utorrent to finish downloading another movie
i haven't burned any of them on a dvd and my hard disk is getting full already
i guess i'm still used to the fact that Berting does all the burning and i do all the downloading and stuff..
division of labor..sorta
well familiarity hits me again and old habits die hard..
you just can't teach an old dog new tricks that easily..
13 more days to go and i'll be sleeping in my own room with a new bed but the same electric fan, that's a relief
i even miss my dvd/cassette player :( bummer huh?
total bummer that i should add..
well this has gone far enough than i intended it to
four posts for today! that's a record breaker isn't it?
not that anyone ever reads my blog anyway haha
well the heck i care if anyone reads it or not
i'm just using this as my online diary/journal for now :)
somewhere where i can air out all my feelings of anger and frustration and the rest..is as they say is history ;P

and i will announce to the whole wide world

that i am sick..
does the whole world really need to know how you are feeling?
or are you just that too starved for attention here?
go on and grab the whole limelight with the matching spotlight
the heck i care
i don't want to get involved in anything that involves you
and don't you just pretend that its ok to step on someone else's bed like that
as if you'd like someone to do that to your on bed!
grrr i am totally mad and furious
stand on your two feet you b*tc*

finale - personal space, security and privacy

this has been the 3 things that i miss having here
i miss the privacy of my own room where no one else can wake me up
i lack sleep always since people are already awake when it is still my sleeping time
i totally lack sleep here
i really don't like it when other people bother me with their own issues
i don't like to be part of other peoples' beeswax
i hate everything here except for the company that i am working for and the salary that i am receiving.
but if that's the only thing that i can look forward to, come to think of it,
it is really not that much
i am thinking of a change in the career path when i transfer to cebu
i want to be in public practice maybe a year or two and then transfer back again to the commerce and industry / private sector again..
there are many roads that will lead me to my destination,
it does not matter which road i will take, in the end
i will get to where i am supposed to be
and now everything sucks big time here
i end up with people i have to put up with every second of the day

kiss my disease ;P

I love this song..can't get enough of this.

The only thing I need kiss my disease
And make it all better
Clean me when I bleed justify me
Make words of my scattered letters

save me.